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Living life one dream at a time.

Words of the Wise

"What after all is a halo? It's only one more thing to keep clean."
-Christopher Fry, The Lady's not for Burning

"Courage doesn't always roar. Sometimes courage is the little voice at the end of the day that says, 'I'll try again tomorrow.'"
-Mary Anne Radmacher

"Do you want me to tell you something really subversive? Love is everything it's cracked up to be. That's why people are so cynical about it. It really is worth fighting for, being brave for, risking everything for. And the trouble is, if you don't risk anything, you risk even more."

-Erica Jong

"Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our Light, not our Darkness, that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you NOT to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the World. There is nothing enlightening about shrinking so that other people won’t feel unsure around you...We were born to manifest the glory of God that is within us; It is not just in some of us; it is in everyone. As we let our own Light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others."
-Nelson Mandella, 1994 Inaugural Speech

"Until this moment I had believed forgiveness to be a special virtue, a beneficence God expected of good people. But it wasn't that at all. Forgiveness was an instinct, a desperate impulse to stay connected to the people you needed, no matter what their betrayals."
-Monica Wood, My Only Story

"If neurotic is wanting two mutually exclusive things at one and the same time, then I'm neurotic as hell. I'll be flying back and forth between one mutually exclusive thing and another for the rest of my days."
-Sylvia Plath, The Bell Jar

"The most important things are the hardest to say. They are the things you get ashamed of, because words diminish them—words shrink things that seemed limitless when they were in your head to no more than living size when they're brought out. But it's more than that, isn't it? The most important things lie too close to wherever your secret heart is buried, like landmarks to a treasure your enemies would love to steal away. And you may make revelations that cost you dearly only to have people look at you in a funny way, not understanding what you've said at all, or why you thought it was so important that you almost cried when you were saying it. That's the worst, I think. When the secret stays locked within not for the want of a teller but for the want of an understanding ear."
-Stephen King

"Have you even been in love? Horrible, isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens your heart and it means someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses. You build up this whole armor, for years, so nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life...You give them a piece of you. They don't ask for it. They do something dumb one day like kiss you, or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so a simple phrase like 'maybe we should just be friends' or 'how very perceptive' turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It's a soul-hurt, a body-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. I hate love."
-Neil Gaiman, Sandman: The Kindly Ones

"Being always overavid, I demand from those I love a love equal to mine which, being balanced people, they cannot supply."
-Sylvia Ashton-Warner

"What I need is someone who will make me do what I can."
-Ralph Waldo Emerson


"You know, when you crawl that far down into the abyss, you really shouldn't bring stuff back up with you. Some things are meant to live in the dark. Your blog is like one of those fish with no eyes. Only slightly more disturbing."
Sunday, November 25, 2007

Pure Evil

reposted from 12/8/06

I'm starting to think that I am really, truly evil. Not like your typical, run-of-the-mill serial killer or anything. We're talking soul-curdling, pits of hell type evil. It's getting a bit disturbing. Here's the evidence, as it stands today:

A couple of weeks ago, I went out to get the mail. As I crossed the street, a little kid was riding his bike past me. He glanced up, looked me in the eye....and promptly keeled over sideways, right off his bike in the middle of the street. No warning, no look of surprise - just BOOM. I tried to help him up, but he cringed away and didn't say a word. Just got up and limped down the street, pushing the bike home....totally dazed.

Last week, the crazy lady across the street lost her dog (again). He was running around, as dogs are wont to do, trying not to be caught. He came into my yard, where I was watching with sheer amusement. I looked at him and said, "Sit, Zinger!" (that's his name, in case you were wondering) So he looked at me, peed down his leg, tucked his tail beneath him, and ran home, straight in through the door.

Then, this afternoon, I was making Christmas cookie dough in the kitchen. Nothing really out of the ordinary for me...just hanging out baking. All of a sudden, the light bulb in the range hood went *pop* and burned out. No big deal, right? So I got another bulb out of the pantry, and walked back towards to stove. As I stepped beneath the ceiling fixture, *pop* went one of the bulbs right over my head. Freaked me out just a little. So I changed both bulbs, and grabbed a can of Diet Pepsi from the fridge. I opened the can, which had just been sitting quietly on the shelf, and the damn thing EXPLODED all over me. Fizzy pop all over my shirt, the floor, the counter...everywhere.

There are several other examples I could share, but these are the highlights. Some horrible force has obviously penetrated my entire being, and is polluting everything around me. My very presence in this world is creating a warp in the fabric of the universe, and I'm getting nervous.

This emanating evil has got to be curtailed!! I'm becoming a hazard to everyone and everything in my path. What do I do? Call a priest? Those haunted house people on tv? If I'm not careful, everyone around me is going to start dropping like flies. I've already bought them Christmas presents!!

Maybe I should save the receipts, just in case.

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