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Living life one dream at a time.

Words of the Wise

"What after all is a halo? It's only one more thing to keep clean."
-Christopher Fry, The Lady's not for Burning

"Courage doesn't always roar. Sometimes courage is the little voice at the end of the day that says, 'I'll try again tomorrow.'"
-Mary Anne Radmacher

"Do you want me to tell you something really subversive? Love is everything it's cracked up to be. That's why people are so cynical about it. It really is worth fighting for, being brave for, risking everything for. And the trouble is, if you don't risk anything, you risk even more."

-Erica Jong

"Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our Light, not our Darkness, that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you NOT to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the World. There is nothing enlightening about shrinking so that other people won’t feel unsure around you...We were born to manifest the glory of God that is within us; It is not just in some of us; it is in everyone. As we let our own Light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others."
-Nelson Mandella, 1994 Inaugural Speech

"Until this moment I had believed forgiveness to be a special virtue, a beneficence God expected of good people. But it wasn't that at all. Forgiveness was an instinct, a desperate impulse to stay connected to the people you needed, no matter what their betrayals."
-Monica Wood, My Only Story

"If neurotic is wanting two mutually exclusive things at one and the same time, then I'm neurotic as hell. I'll be flying back and forth between one mutually exclusive thing and another for the rest of my days."
-Sylvia Plath, The Bell Jar

"The most important things are the hardest to say. They are the things you get ashamed of, because words diminish them—words shrink things that seemed limitless when they were in your head to no more than living size when they're brought out. But it's more than that, isn't it? The most important things lie too close to wherever your secret heart is buried, like landmarks to a treasure your enemies would love to steal away. And you may make revelations that cost you dearly only to have people look at you in a funny way, not understanding what you've said at all, or why you thought it was so important that you almost cried when you were saying it. That's the worst, I think. When the secret stays locked within not for the want of a teller but for the want of an understanding ear."
-Stephen King

"Have you even been in love? Horrible, isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens your heart and it means someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses. You build up this whole armor, for years, so nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life...You give them a piece of you. They don't ask for it. They do something dumb one day like kiss you, or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so a simple phrase like 'maybe we should just be friends' or 'how very perceptive' turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It's a soul-hurt, a body-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. I hate love."
-Neil Gaiman, Sandman: The Kindly Ones

"Being always overavid, I demand from those I love a love equal to mine which, being balanced people, they cannot supply."
-Sylvia Ashton-Warner

"What I need is someone who will make me do what I can."
-Ralph Waldo Emerson


"You know, when you crawl that far down into the abyss, you really shouldn't bring stuff back up with you. Some things are meant to live in the dark. Your blog is like one of those fish with no eyes. Only slightly more disturbing."
Thursday, December 11, 2008

My heart-shaped, professionally wrapped, strategically placed, Black (except in a recessionary year) Friday-discounted box is two sizes too small.

I really, really, really, hate this soul-numbing season commonly referred to as the holidays. The over-commercialized, plastic-coated, well-lit, synthetic representation of genuine, imitation Christmas-flavored product is enough to give me hives.

I'm sorry. I know that as a human being, I'm not allowed to say that. So maybe today, I'll be a wallaby.

It's not about the gifts. It's not about the decorations, the music, the time off work, or even the cookies.

It's about...

...

...

...yeah.

March to the beat of your own little drummer boy. Have the guts to step away from the crowd and just love the people that matter to you this Christmas.

Not an over-commercialized, plastic-coated, well-lit, synthetic representation of genuine, imitation love, either. Spend the few extra bucks of emotional capital for the real thing, despite the mounting evidence of spiritual recession.

Save the Christmas spirit, one corner of the world at a time.

Hell, I'll even spring for a bigger box.

2 comments:

Anonymous said...

A few disparate thoughts, some of them connected:

*) Almost two decades later, and still one of my favorite rock quotes:

"Never mind what's been selling. It's what you're buying, and receiving undefiled." -- Fugazi, "Blueprint"

*) A lot of us bought the wrapping paper and think it's the present. You haven't. (Well, not much; we're all a little guilty of heightened expectations this time of year.) It's part of what makes you awesome, girl.

*) They can try to tell you what Christmas/Hannukah/Boxing Day is supposed to mean, but after the age of (let's say) 12, that choice is yours. First no harm, and after that do what thou will.

*) And since everyone can and will have their own definition of what the holidays are all about, I let others have their moment. Every "Christmas Shoes" that comes out, every Secret Santa with co-workers that make my teeth itch, every "War on Christmas" special on the news... it only adds meaning and significance to the choices *I* make.

*) Serenity is ours, always, if we allow it to enter. Pride and ego have a wonderful habit of getting in the way, though. And I'm as guilty of it as the next guy.

*) Merry Christmas, C. :)

Whirledpeas said...

Yeah, what he said.